Random thoughts

For the first time I just listened to a blog post, a podcast, narrated by a dear friend. A warm voice, emotional music, giving me so much nostalgia about so many chances I missed, skills I could have developed, people I could have made friends, places I wanted to be attached to. How I thought of many things so lightly and how I realize now how important they really are.

I realize the importance of having someone you fully trust, with whom you have all the freedom you want to talk, just talk. I understand people’s reactions when they know that I live alone for so long. I understand how is this translated to my endless passion and desire to adhere to something I love, a group of people, a project, something I feel that I can support because what I really need is how to gain back this support.

I realize how short is the span of my attachments, for all my life I was the traveler kind, not staying in the same place from 1 to 3 years, always traveling, always gaining and losing friends, rarely regaining them and sometimes losing them again. I never really experienced how someone can be so lonely until I fell in love then broke up, and for reasons that are not in my hands. Now I understand how strange or silly some people might act because of this…

But, like my friend says, pray that you can go back in time, but you can’t…

One Response to Random thoughts
  1. Gabriela Reply

    Sometimes, I'd love to have the possibilty to get back in time. But then again, there are some moments I won't like to experience again.
    I guess it's better to find out what awaits us.

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